Batter up

So, it’s officially one month into my 101 things and I’ve done…nothing. Ok, so I was successfully putting $25 a week into my savings account but I ran into a long story short snag that’s really not worth getting into here and I had to move that money back into my checking account. So, I’m back to zero. I feel like in a way, my current money situation is a metaphor for my life lately. Just when I start to get ahead, I take two steps backward. I made a statement yesterday to a friend that life is like baseball. Sometimes you get thrown a curveball and you just don’t see it coming. You take a swing, you miss. So, you step out of the batter’s box, readjust, and on the next pitch you’re ready for it and swing away.  So, this is me, today, stepping out of the batter’s box and readjusting so I can again, swing away.

I said I was going to start with going paleo and joining cross fit. I can not right now afford a cross fit gym so I’m going to put that on hold for a bit until I can afford it. I will, however, begin the paleo in earnest. I have printed out some recipes and read up a bit to understand the core principles.  I will hit the grocery store tomorrow night (hey its Labor Day weekend, I deserve to relax, too!) and I will stock up for my week of paleo. I recognize in myself that I work best in bite sized goals. So, goal one, paleo for a week. Then, paleo week 2, paleo week 3, etc. I will keep you all updated on how I ACTUALLY do this time and definitely will post any recipes that I find to be especially yummy. 

As for the rest of my list, well, let’s see. I guess this week I’ll start over with putting $25 a week into my savings account. I have spoken to some friends about potentially getting tickets to the December 4 Green Bay vs Giants game. I hope this works out because I have always wanted to attend a professional football game. I have also taken a step, potentially, toward finding a career I love. But, that’s a bit premature right now and I will write more about that as it comes into more clear focus.  To be honest, I haven’t been attempting much on this list. I know, I know, it’s not like I have 101 days to do each of these items, I have time, however, I am a firm believer in you set a goal, you make the necessary steps, and you achieve the goal. I have set the goals, but I have not been taking the necessary steps to achieve the goals. So, today, this is me, readjusting my swing and stepping back into that batter’s box.

I guess I shouldn’t be too hard on myself. I have kept up with blogging once a week and I had dinner with three different sets of friends last month and already this month I went out with to dinner with another group of friends, so I have been keeping up with the go out to dinner with friends once a month item.  I’m actually glad that of all the things I’ve kept up with that’s one of them because to be honest my friends are my world, my rocks, they keep me sane. I don’t know where I’d be in my life without them to call me out when I’m being crazy, to laugh at me when I’m being silly, and to all around just be the wonderful, great, supportive people they are in my life.

But, one thing I have been horrible at is #86 – slow my tongue; words hurt and I need to learn to not always say exactly what I’m thinking. I have, as of late, fallen into a really strange angry place. It’s not my normal character. It’s not who I am. I know this. I sort of understand where it stems from, but I sort of don’t. I have been taking out on the world my frustrations with things that are beyond the worlds and even my control. I’m a genuinely happy person. Sure, we all have our bad days, but as of late I have had one too many strings of bad days. Again, readjusting my swing, I took this weekend to take a step back and examine my feelings. To really get to the core of what was upsetting me and confront it. I am now, standing outside the box, putting some tar on the bat and thinking. What’s my next move? Baseball is a game of strategy. Life is a game of strategy. I need this minute to step back, readjust, and then push forward so I can start hitting my line drives again. Oh, I’m not a home run hitter. Small ball is the way I play. Hit enough line drives you’ll eventually score. And it only takes one point on the board more than your opponent to win. So, I just have to get my swing back. I hope that by next month I’ll have more positive results to post. But for now, I’m happy to say that I’m readjusting and that’s ok. We all need time in life to fix our swing.